我回来了

我回来了 !

After a stay at my cousin's house for 2 weeks,
enuff of her phyco-ing :x
Wells i realised,
he is actually not very gd, and he still cant admit his fault at all.
Wells, it juz makes me flame all over again after hearing his name.

xie xie ni men.
thanks for not giving up on me.
If that time i really walked down the path of him and me again,
i think i would really be inside the circles.
Going round and round.
No matter how you all scold me and shout at me,
i just turned on deaf ears.
I chose to listen to him.
Juz like my sis say: An orange cannot become an apple.
no matter how he force, we are juz destined together.
But he juz dun understand.
So, who cares, i love my life now.

After much phyco frm jie,
i really noticed the world is very small.
my friend's aunty got ran over by a car and she died.
My squad mates noticed me,
D06 ppl met me in hospital.
they knew i couldnt go out wif them, so they come and visit me.
im totally touched by wad they are doing.

Ling and Hua also din give up on me at all.
No matter how i scold them, no matter wad happened,
they are always there to listen, to guide me back to the path i should walk.
Never once they complained that this is too tough for them.
They held me on.
they still cherished me till the end.
they are still wanting me as a friend, no matter wad happens.

8 Dec.
i destroyed her bdae.
on the dot 12am of 8dec.
i told her off for scolding me.
The day after we are supposed to celebrate her bdae at my house.
I thought she is gona hack care me,
but in the end, she really act as if nth have happened.
I finally understand, its not that they couldnt understand, its me who cant understand them at all.
I scolded her for being so firece,
but nv before i think that her pain is far more worst den mine.
If i couldnt walk, its my pain.
But she sees me sadded coz of this, she feels sad too, double of my pain.
When she sees that im in pain that i have to be in between him and my parents again, she understands, and is in double pain.
When she sees me struggle to stand, her heart aches but no one noes.
She cried when she think of me, but no one noes.
She sees me so sad, but when she cant do anything, her heart aches again.
She is a friend, more to a sister to me already.
im really very thankful to her.
5 years of friendship, she really cherished it.
When i first got wif him, we fought but we got back together.
2006 when its my bdae, although i din celebrate wif her, but she still remembers me.
2007, when i have problems wif him, she will always be there.
2008, when accident happened, she blames herself why is it that day she din drag me to bugis.
2008, when she remembered back, she blames herself why is it that she wana intro him to me.
8 dec 2008, she din blame me for wad i have done to her, she held back all her tears, juz to smile to show me everything is fine.
19 dec 2008, she followed me to threapy, her heart aches when she see me struggling to ride that stupid bike.
25 dec 2008, she promise to be there when she have to work no matter wad.
26 dec 2008, she throws all her things away juz to plan a bdae for me.
2009, she says she wana drive me all over singapore.

This person, is non other den Huiling.
Thank You, if it wasnt for you, i dun think i can survive.
It have taken a very long time before i revealled all this things out.
But i hope im not too late.
Thank you.