People rather believe in lies rather than believing in the real stuffs.

Thank you so much for everything today.

you knew when i will feel guilty.

you knew my stubborness.

you knew when i dun feel well.

Rather, u noe me more den myself.

人生的道路还有很长。

I really duno wad can i do to make me feel a lesser guilt.

I really duno wad can i do to make you forgive me.

All i knew is,

Pengxin you are so dumb.

i din noe you actually noe me better den i noe myself. Things that im worrying are always worried by you first before myself. When things became hard to handle, you are always there to guide me along. It brings me so hard to believe that someone else can actually understand me so much. Even without words, im now being able to express myself to you. You bought me back to the real world. I hid myself so deep inside, you invade my "life" and brought me back. If i say i would to let you go, i would be lying. You are too gd for me to let go of you. Although you are slping now, but i really wana say all this personally to you today, however, my tears flood before i could actually say anything.

'xie xie ni'

you made me feel like the pengxin i used to feel. Its really hard to keep smiling to people when you are not happy at all. Facing you, i really dun have to hide. You made me feel myself. It have been a long while since i actually smile and laughed frm the btm of my heart. You made it possible. Vivo actually had many many bad memories; but you turned them all to my best memories. Everything seemed possible with you. Im not afraid that there might be problems in the future, as long as you are willing to be with me thoughout all these. Im not afraid that i might be alone in future; coz you are always there whenever i needed you. You just felt me. 16th floor of 648B have always been tears; but you turned them into a romantic hideout. Can you see the big change you have made in my life? Now you understand why i kept thanking you? No one have chased me to go home early, coz they knew im always not happy at home. Everytime i faced the 4 walls at home, i start emo-ing. But you, despite my stubborn-ness, dragged me all the way home frm chinatown and back home. And coz you knew i would feel guilty towards my parents if i dun go home early. You, confort me using many many positive reasons. Never did blame me once for making troubles for you. Despite my injuries, you are willing to wait till i recover. This is all enough. Its enough to keep me happy. The only fear i have in mind is my injuries. First is my ugly scars, which you have assured me again and again that they are pretty. Secondly is the troubles im gona give you. But you are willing to face it with me and walk side by side with me till the end. You cleared my doubts again and again. Dun leave me okaes? I guess you are starting to be my life already. You are my mood, my tummy, my seek of happiness; my everything.

Dearest is cute (:

Slippers broke today.

SO SHYT!

But, lucky

dearest is here~

Thank you! (:

我很重吧!

初三。

Darlings and Sebas came over to my hse to bai nian today.

Cravings for chocolate suddenly;

Wells, still ; pics shall do the talking (:

Happy Niu year (:

Although this year's "qi fen" is not very high,

The drums of the lion dancers did not wake me up.

Wells, its still a chinese new year after all.

Pics taken during reunion dine

Bowling session btw my family; My aunt chased my shu shu around the bowling alley coz he laughed at her "lan" bowling skills. Omg, can you imgaine that? Their ages add up to 100! *shakes head* - tsk tsk.

Da nian chu yi ;
Went over to my shu shu's hse bai nian. Though pic is taken at my hse (:



Da Nian chu er ;
Her rojak hair turns out to be the same colour as me (:
Not much pics, but alot of feelings (:

遇见你 = 遇见辛福。

好想你。。

I can only say, thank you darling for everything you have done today (:

You noe, i noe, he noes.

Shh.

Days are getting happier and happier.

Will it end?

Loves; cam-whoring.

P.S : Spags is nice today (:

I din noe you can cook (:

P.S : For more pics, pls kindly link to darlings blog coz im LAZY~

High-ness.

It feels great to be by ur side (:

ur "fast reactions"

doing ur report research with you;

caught a movie, laughed like hell.

recieved a heart shaped keychain LOLS (free gift).

Walked around jp (:

Hope you had a nice & sweet day.

Meet up with darlings,

my darling become my nuer?!

my baichi become bearbear?!

and me; xinxin?!

oh shyt, babies coming out will be animals.

Dine at "char chan ting"

Suprised ppl there still remember me (:

Darlings bought a bag for me while shopping around in far east.

Cool, my dream bag (:

THANKS!!

Did medicure,

its a purple year~

Cabbed home.

Faces changed.

Disasters.

Bad things always comes after the gd.

It always happens; without fail.

But, pictures says it all.

Sweetness ;

I guess im the luckiest girl on earth.

I passed though death,

I found a hell gd friend,

I got someone who loves me,

I got my family to take care of me.

Thank god, for not bringing me away at the time when i was so critical. Thanks for giving me another chance to look at life again. It makes me stronger now. So strong.

Thanks Huiling my bestie/ Darling, for always being there for me, i guessed you must be quite troubled by my sickness. But dun worry yea? I will take gd care of myself. You must take care of yourself on the other hand too, stop thinking that no one cares. There are lots of people here waiting to care for you. Its whether you accept their care and concern anot. Troubles might be flooding you, but do think at the brighter side. If life have no obstacles, wouldnt it be so boring? Do not be scared. Go for wad you want. God have eyes, he noes that you are being good. Luck will come to you soon, but its all for you to grab. Remember, your presence is important to us. Coz we care.

Thanks to my "baichi", who always tries to read my mind, trying to keep me accompanied. Its always happy to have you around me. Never to forget me in wadeva you are doing. Do study hard and go ahead wif ur goals in life. Hope i din hinder ur studies yea? We still got a long way to go, alot to learn, alot of things to go through. Everything is frm the new start again. And i can feel its a good start. You made me life is full of hopes, full of joy, full of love. You made me feel different (:

Thanks to my family, who gave me the second life. I really duno how to thank them enough. No matter wad problems i gave them, no matter wad flaws i have, they accept it all. They taught me to become wad i am today. They brought me back to the pengxin standing here today.

"When you are out all alone, scared and crying, theres a place always welcoming you, its a place called HOME."

"Things have happened and its all the past"; it made me grow and understand.
"I love you for who you are, just the person you are"; it made me smile and smile again.
"No matter wad happens, you'll have me"; it made me have a cushion to fall back on.
"I wun let you be alone anymore"; it made me feel so blessed.

13 more days ;

A Couple's Heartbreak

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage.
They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes.
When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard.
The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages.
When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died.
The mother was stunned.
She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?


The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior.
The child is dead.
He can never be brought back to life.
There is no point in finding fault with the mother.
Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened.
No point in attaching blame.
She had also lost her only child.
What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband.
That is what he gave her.


Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know.
We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support.
After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do?
Treasure what you have.
Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.
If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.


Something i koped frm YS's blog which is like so true (:

Woke up by jie's fone call, fall aslp;
Picked up msg by sebas, fall aslp;
Picked up msg by jie, fall aslp;
call by jie for lunch, fall aslp;

Total pig-ness.
Stupid dumb flu, shoo away.
Strepils are not really working well :P (thank you!)
But they cured my sore throat though.
Im gona pin you down by my mum's strong flu medicinie today!
YOU ARE SO GONE~

Took some dumb pics while jie pulls my eeyore's ears.
She is evil isnt it?!
Coz its all in the genes; aww.

I feel as if im laying on clouds, so awaiting.

我好开心。

sick,sick,sick ;

星期一

Woke up by the vacuum cleaner's voice early in the morning "VUUUUM".

Waited for my bro to finish skoo.

Went to old jurong west.

"bai bai"

Our red-stained hands thanks to the joss sticks.
Boredom.Ah ma's house ;

Cuteness ;

I look so like my bro (:

Its 6am in the morning (:
Forgotten to eat painkillers and now waiting for it to take effect?!

So dumb.

好想你.

有谁能比我知道

你的温柔像羽毛

秘密躺在我怀抱

只有你能听得到

还有没有人知道

你的微笑像拥抱

多想藏着你的好

只有我看得到

站在屋顶只对风说

不想被左右

本来讨厌下雨的天空

直到听见有人说爱我

我想我是太过依赖

在挂电话的刚才

坚持学单纯的小孩

静静看守这份爱

知道不能太依赖

怕你会把我宠坏

你的香味一直徘徊

我舍不得离开.

IM SO DUMB!

Its not easy to start afresh.
But im willing to try.
For you, i will try my best.
I might nt be the ideal one,
but im willing to learn to be one.

Overcoming obstacles is not easy,
but im willing to step over all stones for you.
I hope my wishes did come true.

Darling, do stay happy as always, i will always be there for you. Ups and downs. I promise i wun be like wad i am 2 years ago. I may sound wrong, but still "im afraid to lose eu again."

My baichi, thank you for being there for me, its a new start, a new life. I shall cherish you (:
i love you.

Its a peace of mind at last.

Biao mei dyed her hair, see her rojak colour (:

; Loves

Chen sebas.

说好的幸福.

Sky is so purple tonight; its gona rain~

Sihui got hair dyed; (red, purple, brown, blone, orange)
HAHA sounds like rojak :x

Realised sebas duno how to use chopsticks :x

-- Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place --
; CHEN XIAOXIN

god just make him happy.
wo jiu zhu gou ler.

WTF;
the old man came to my house today.
scolded him in the face can -.-
Now he noes PX 不好欺负.

Crappy words always came out frm his mouth.

"i took 2 hours to travel to ur house"
-- i can use 1 hour to travel to another side of sg. You use walk one arh?! Queenstown to boonlay take bus oso dun have 2hours.

"I old man ler, nid use walking stick to walk, ke lian me abit nah"
-- WTF?! I WAS IN WHEELCHAIR, YOU GOT KE LIAN ME?! WHEN I WAS BABY YOU GOT KE LIAN ME?! MY MUM KENA HARASSED BY YOU, YOU GOT KE LIAN HER?!

"I pay for all the things you use in the first 6 years of ur life"
-- Wad crap, i only stayed in ur hse for 2 years & nai nai is the one who pay lurh. YOU ALMOST KILLED ME BY THROWING ME DOWN THE WINDOW?!

"Can help me tell ur nai nai, ur mum, ur dad that im suffering frm sickness, ask them to call me can?"
-- You die ur busniess.

"Can give me ur house number so i can call you?"
-- Give you so you can harass us?! Dan gu gu.

"I will come back in 3 days time"
-- Come lurhs, police will be waiting at the door. Cyas.

I may seem heartless, but i dun care.

Your presence got nothing to do wif me.

I dun treat you like someone i noe.

I DUN CARE.

Calls spammed frm darling and sihui totally woke me up.
Opened the door in my vamp face.
Darling was like "SLP SLP SLP"
den once i let her in, PONNG ; she FLY to my bed lers.
Now its full of her smell -.-

Met up wif sihui and went pmall to "fetch" sebas.
ordered food as lunch for ling and went back.
Ling went to dye hair,
sihui me and sebas were like slacking.
And i decided to cut my hair.
BANGS~ really wana bang wall lers.

Dumb sebas. His specs farmiliar right?! Its mine -.-
See act studying, my mei says he look like "lao ti-co"

YEA! my hair ROCKS.
Wees, thanks, another day is gone (:
19 more days to go ;

我不知道.

Went jp today, by RIGHT i shouldnt go. by LEFT, i went. Bought lotsa stuff, and i look like sua ku there. Coz its like the first time i saw jp SO big!? Pics shall do the toking.

Candied shot (taken by huahua darling) ; waiting for our friendship rings to be done (:
Darling "siam-ing" my cam in macs ; nid rest lurhs. Walk so much today.

My loves for eeyore. Look! jie is at the back :

Darling's PIKA?! PIKA?!

Had lunch at swensense ; Thanks jie for lunchie!

Shopped for cny, bought a new wallet after like 3 years?! A tube dress, a shorts, a friendship ring wif my 2 darlings, a eeyore pencil case, and a pair of slippers. Walked in jp like frm 1pm-9pm. So cool right?! Girls are always gd at shopping (: Walked home after that entertained by darling's GAY walk. I tell you, im so going to have tummy cramps due to laughing too hard.

Though today may seem simple to everyone out there, but to me, today i shall promise myself not to do things im not supposed to do anymore. No matter wad happens, no matter how tong ku i am, i shall bare wif it till gd news is here.