SCREW U WOMAN. FK U!

Headed to Novena today for orientation. Couldnt enter the condo as the security guards wouldnt let me in due to IMPROPER attire. (im not wearing uniform) -- stupid reason.
Waited till 2pm after the management lets us in. Worth the wait, the place is beautiful and peaceful. After which i walked back to United Square. Looked at my watch, sian-ed half, decided to stroll ard the shopping center. Memories. Baby i miss u.

Texted ling and dropby her wrk place at Tiong. Lunched and went strolling ard Tiong plaza as her place is starting to flood and that i feel like an thr. Baby i miss u x2.

Another 2 mre hours before i meet Huishan, decided not to go home and get out again (save transport fees). Trained back to JP, strolled ard again. Headed to lib to borrow some bks. Read this bk "Swimming lessons" ; cool bk. Baby i miss u x3.

Met Huishan and acc buy her cap. Sry that i din hav that mood to look ard with u, wasnt in a gd mood today. Bt u look cute in the pink cap though! (:

Home-ed.

A call makes things worst. Lets not talk abt it ;

Anw, Happy Bdae Metal babies ; ur a year older nw.

* Baby, i hope ur day is not as bad as mine. May ur unhappiness befall on me, so that u will stay happy, in this case ur happiness will drive all my unhappiness away. I miss u x4.

Its monday again.

Arrival of Saturday, ton-ed at baby's, woken up by his snores.
Gt abit tipsy, brains gone hay-wire spoke nonsense and laughed non stop.
Thks baby, acc-ing me 1 full day.
You noe, i realised, we are not as close anymre. We no longer belong. I hope im thinking too much. Bt it seems, ur slowly walking out of my life; not even saying "good bye". Even if time lets us catch up, i dont think i will ever catch up with u anymre. Either im too slow, or ur too fast. Bt no matter wad, ur always thr, my best fren.

1 day!
1 mre day to Friday; which means im getting to see baby tmr!

The medicine im taking makes me wana killl

Blame it on the daily girl prob, im having really bad mood swings.

Poor mum hav to take my rants everyday.

I'll feel btr soon, I hope.

Busy weekend with baby, peak of all my days in this hols.
And nw, im back to normal; bored-ness.

Went for another lung fuction test in Glen, yea this time it confirms my lungs are nt up to standard, it might heal, it might not heal, it might worsen as time goes by. Nw im wondering, hw my future will be; will the pain be too unbareable? Im back on medication, this time like a asmathic patient. I'll be on inhalers, and singulairs to build my lungs back. The cost of those medicines are like FK. NUH lied, my lungs are not normal anymore.

Of all this things thats happening ard me, i think im not the one who suffers the most; Pain, is nothing anymore. Mum, Dad, Sebas, and ppl ard me are suffering the most. Taking care of me a life time, spending all their savings jus to see me away frm pain.

I wonder wads everyone busy with nwdays, y am i so free?

*Imy baby.

The higher hopes u hold, the harder u fall;

Rain Rain go away;

my metal babies are shivering, Badly!