Happy Bdae to you, my baby,
Bdae wishes to you, i do send.
You look gd for your age, i could say,
But you look gd to me at any day.

When i look in the mirror, i sigh,
Cos i know the mirror doesnt lie.
You're aging like me, so you surely can see,
you're growing to be an old ah pek!

Bt still, may all ur wishes come true!

HAPPY 18TH BDAE BF!

School, Family, Friends, wads more?!

Stressed.

Make it past.

Went imm for PFA lesson today. Walked like 2 hours non stop, felt my legs breaking. Had total headaches as if my head having cramps. School is indeed stressing. Jia yous Chen Xiaoxin.

I dn understand. I really dn. I wasnt happy living in my own world. Dn assume im happy. No im nt, you dnn hw im outcasted in school. You din noe i have to spend breaks ALONE. You told me you will eat lunch with me whenever i need you. Whr are you whn i needed you.. I jus wana noe hw ur doing. I JUS WANA SHOW I STILL CARE. Bt wad i got? I GOT NTH. I caused mre misunderstandings. ITS ME ALRIGHT?! ME ME ME. Stop assuming. JUS STOP IT. You din noe hw much im suffering inside. YOU DNN HW MUCH PAIN YOU HAVE LEFT ME. All you noe, is my happiness without you. I think, your the one being happy WITHOUT me. Im nt angry, im nt fedup. Whn you told me you dnn wad happened, bt i was clear. You changed. You STOPPED understanding, you STOPPED giving in, you STOPPED communicating. You will never noe, NEVER EVER NOE.

Legs tired of all the walking ard school campus. Rained the whole day and i wore the wrong slippers. It jus made me rmb the days whr i and sebas changed slippers cos mine is too slippery =\ Woke up with bad dream, scared out of my wits. Many bad bad feelings came to me, tried to go home early after school today (: im a gd girl~ Headaches have been continuous, maybe its due to the weather. Humid and hot, plus rain and humid today. Totally sickening.

Maths lecture was boring and oh man, i totally dn understand what the heck he is trying to teach. I cant fail it again, i got no more chances left. This is stressing.

Time flies, its going 2mths ever since i have ever talked to you. Im wondering hw have you been, are problems arising for you, and whether you still rmbed me. I msged you and was totally worn out after that. I dnn wad were you thinking, you totally gt me wrong. Never did once i was angry with you. Never did once i nv took you as my fren. I really wan to noe wad have gotten over you, wad makes you so angry. All the years we have spend together, all i could do is keep as memories.
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As you said, nothing could be changed, den jus let it be. I shall nt step in otherwise thr will be mre misunderstandings, and it'll be me who will be held responsible again.

It has been a week after school started. Everyday is a new day, unexcepted, different, shocking. It feels different to be the oldest in class, the odd one out, "newbie" of the class. Total of 5 modules, im alr in 5 different classes. Plus tutorial classes are different, its another addition to the different classes i have to go. Every class is a new face. Some are those who treats you like part of them, while some totally treats you like air. Wells, i have learnt alot, starting of school is tiring, harder to adapt, hwever, there are ppl who never forgets. Thank you huishan, yeesan, ziyan, brenda and sihui (: My breaks are less lonely as compared to the last last sem.

Ytd was total tiring. Lecture was hard. Mood swing like 360 degrees. Met sebas to acc him for trainning after i went home frm skoo. I think he is as sweet as the hershey's pie from burger king =\ Now i noe why you like to have so many pockets in ur berms. They're to keep chocolates for me! Hahs, whn i thought those were the last chocolates, you simply pulled out another. Totally changed my views of that day (: Thank you!

P.S Life wasnt so bad afterall.
P.P.S Take care.

First day of skoo, was unexpected. Met baby at pioneer and head to skoo early in the morning. I really appreciate that you woke up eariler den usual jus to acc me take train (: Thanks~! After which i reached skoo and i rmbed, I TAPPED my student pass. Went to class and realised my card is gone. 43 bucks of concession jus bought + $15++ worth of cash inside. Whoa, im jus so unlucky. Paniced and went everywhr jus to find it. Wells, accepted the fact my card is gone, went to class and HOLY~ Lecturer opened his mouth and told me that im nt supposed to wear slippers to class. He asked me to wear his stinky safety boot! Holy shyt. I was carrying this stinky pair of boot to my seat jus when this guy stepped in in slippers. And almost immediately, he shouted at him and asked me to pass the guy the boot. Lucky me, i dn have to wear that boot =\ I wun wear it anw. Pls, its dirty, ugly, stinky, unglam + horrible. Still mourning over my lost student pass, i realised class only contain 1 girl, ME. Wells, class is noisy + cencored. They were like super high. Wells, i wun see them often, at most 6 lessons for the whole sem.

Had maths, its the 3rd time im taking it. And its the 3rd time im hearing the same old thing, and its the 3rd time im seeing the same bk. Was released 1 hour earlier and so i walked all the way to find sihui at convention centre. Hell far can. Ate free icecream and was mistaken as a freshie -.- Went back to meet huishan and yeesan, headed to makan place for lunch. Im like walking in circles inside np, carrying a super duper heavy laptop + a bag filled with bks. I felt my hips breaking can.

Continued class and dad msged me ( i dnn whn he become so high tech one, normally he use 5 mins to type like 2-words?!) He told me a lecturer found my student pass and asked me to contact him. WHA! I told mum to like terminate the service alr! Fancy losing things on the first day, terminate and TADA the card is found. Nida pay like $18 for renewal of a card and whoa, mum told me nvm, so unlucky day, she wana go buy 4-D, "4210" (my hp number) Bt wells, whn she called back and asked if she could void the termination nt, the person said ok! COOL~ i lost my student card, terminated the service, someone found it and its actually send all the way to me to my classrm, voided the service, and i can use it agn! Unbelievable. Am i unlucky or am i vry lucky?!

P.s skoo is nt bad actually. It jus felt different nw.